I followed the teacher’s advice and faced those scary bloody scenes boldly with a calm mind. I didn’t run away or asked those ghostly faces to leave me alone, but just observe calmly, with a light, happy heart. And after a while, those images started appearing less and less. And at one time, they were all gone! 🙂
So without those distractions, I could focus my mind into practicing Vipassana meditation today. At some point of time, I began to feel a very subtle vibration on my body. It’s very subtle. I knew it’s not something imaginary, but obviously right here on my body. It’s kind of like an electrical circuit moving along with my attention across the body. And let me tell you… it feels great!
Actually, this is a major step in practicing Vipassana and learning equanimity (平常心). One can only feel this subtle sensation when the mind is very calm and attentive. While one could enjoy this electrified feeling here and now, this person shouldn’t be addicted and crave for it when it’s gone. When the feeling is gone, let it be. When there is craving or aversion, there can’t be any peace in mind. And without a calm and peaceful mind, one can’t get to this feeling. And so the vicious cycle begins.