I was so not in the mood of meditation today! I totally got distracted by the fact that today was actually the last day of learning Vipassana. Students wouldn’t learn anything new about Vipassana on Day 10. It was designed as a day for the students to rewind and get ready to go back to their “normal lives”. So Noble Silence would end tomorrow morning and I could go home the day after tomorrow!
I was all hyped up at the thought of the end of this course. So instead of focusing my mind on my sensation and body during meditation, I kept thinking about all the things that I would do once I got home. In Q&A session, I told the teacher about my distraction and asked if this was counted as a lost of equanimity (ie: craving for going home). The teacher said my feeling was very normal and understandable, and this wouldn’t be counted as a lost of equanimity. In fact, he told me he missed home and wanted to go home too.